I am sitting here hoping that writing will help the ache in my heart.  Today in the car Danny started asking questions about Annabelle and it took everything not to completely break down.  He wanted to know if his sister will grow big and strong in heaven and if she will have room in the box shes in.  He wanted to know why she had a big ouchie and why she had to go to heaven.  He wanted to know if she will always be his sister.  Today I just want to wake up from this dream and turn over to see Annabelle sleeping in her little bassinet.  But I can't because she never will.  My tears are running down my face but they will never be able to fill the void in my arms and in my heart.  Oh how much I miss the little girl I only got to see for moments.  I miss what she was and what she will never be.  I just want 5 minutes to hold her again.  Dear God please give me strength.  I feel so weak.