I am sitting here hoping that writing will help the ache in my heart.  Today in the car Danny started asking questions about Annabelle and it took everything not to completely break down.  He wanted to know if his sister will grow big and strong in heaven and if she will have room in the box shes in.  He wanted to know why she had a big ouchie and why she had to go to heaven.  He wanted to know if she will always be his sister.  Today I just want to wake up from this dream and turn over to see Annabelle sleeping in her little bassinet.  But I can't because she never will.  My tears are running down my face but they will never be able to fill the void in my arms and in my heart.  Oh how much I miss the little girl I only got to see for moments.  I miss what she was and what she will never be.  I just want 5 minutes to hold her again.  Dear God please give me strength.  I feel so weak.

October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

 MYTH: A parent who has lost a baby wants to forget it ever happened and move on with their life. TRUTH: In the words of Elizabeth Edwards, "If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and...THAT is a great gift."

Please take a moment to remember all the babies that have left this earth too soon.  Many families will be lighting a candle at 7 PM tonight (including us), and it would mean the world to us if you light one for Annabelle and all the babies who are with her.

I am ready to share some pictures of our little girl...